Trials and Tribulations

 

The Throne of God taken on 26 August 2008

I want to thank God for showing to me that He exists and for telling me that there are Purgatory.  One night, I dreamt of National University of Singapore.  I was walking in the linked shelter --the yellow shelter.  I was walking and walking and then later on I saw the scriptures with the word "God's Will" zooming in and then I woke up to see the image of the Singapore Map (the formation of the Clouds) outside my window.  

Map of Singapore on 26 August 2008 A Living Sacrifice 

Sacrifice of Body and Mind: Romans 12:1-2

Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.  Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

 2009, I was lying on the bed of Mount Alvernia Hospital

Babies are gifts of life from God.  Due to my ignorance and blindness and family circumstances, I aborted my baby after Richard's return.  Some couples wanted babies and they couldn't even have any.  Here I am, God gave me a new life and I killed it.  Now God came to me, telling me it was all wrong.  I have to sacrifice.  I was given again a new life and this time I learned my lessons, and no matter how hard it may be, I had to keep the baby.  The doctor asked me to do test to check if baby was normal.  I did not check for any test.  It was my faith to trust God, to give me a perfect child despite my old age at that year.  So indeed, I gave birth to a perfect child.  

Now Richard had left again, and this time he is remarried to another woman.  God showed His existence and Jesus asked me to Follow Him.  Here I am, living in faith and hope that everything will go on well for my children and family.  I will put my trust in God for He works in a miraculous way and He can work wonders.  

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Bird Nest

  

The Sunbird's nest was seen in my corridor garden

When I was in Primary one, I read in the Chinese Textbook about bird nest on the tree.  After school, I looked up on trees to spot bird nest.  Until when I was a teenage, and even older, I never even seen any bird nest on trees. It was until I was 'reborn' and I started to see more birds, more miracles in life.  I also get to see different types of bird nests in real life.  

Last Friday, Isaac came home and he was so excitedly told me that there was a bird nest again!  I quickly went to see.  Indeed there was a bird nest, almost completed by the sunbirds.  A few days ago, there was not any bird nest yet!  How amazing the birds are.  They can build their nest within days only. 

 Jesus answered them, “Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days.”           ~ John 2:19

Last year, we kept looking at the bird nest, so anxious to see the eggs and babies.  In the end, we caused the birds to lost their eggs.  This time we must give them more privacy, more space, to keep their eggs and to see their little babies in time soon.  

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To be Happy

                                                      Photograph of Me carrying Isaac

I named him Isaac because God gave a new life to me and the name "Isaac" means laughter, happy. Just like God had given Isaac to Abraham and his wife at old age, God had given me another new life at my older age too.  As I had not learned much about my faith, now that he is attending catechism class, sometimes I am learning from him also -- I had always been learning from my children.  

Received a message from the catechist and I thought it was so good to share over here:

A homily from our pope that's worth a read: 

 *You can have flaws, be anxious, and even be angry, but do not forget that your life is the greatest enterprise in the world. Only you can stop it from going bust. 

Many appreciate you, admire you and love you. 

Remember that to be happy is not to have a sky without a storm, a road without accidents, work without fatigue, relationships without disappointments. 

To be happy is to find strength in forgiveness, hope in battles, security in the stage of fear, love in discord. It is not only to enjoy the smile, but also to reflect on the sadness. It is not only to celebrate the successes, but to learn lessons from the failures. It is not only to feel happy with the applause, but to be happy in anonymity. Being happy is not a fatality of destiny, but an achievement for those who can travel within themselves. 

To be happy is to stop feeling like a victim and become your destiny's author. It is to cross deserts, yet to be able to find an oasis in the depths of our soul. It is to thank God for every morning, for the miracle of life. Being happy is not being afraid of your own feelings. It's to be able to talk about you. It is having the courage to hear a "no". It is confidence in the face of criticism, even when unjustified. It is to kiss your children, pamper your parents, to live poetic moments with friends, even when they hurt us. 

To be happy is to let live the creature that lives in each of us, free, joyful and simple. It is to have maturity to be able to say: "I made mistakes". It is to have the courage to say "I am sorry". It is to have the sensitivity to say, "I need you". It is to have the ability to say "I love you". 

May your life become a garden of opportunities for happiness... That in spring may it be a lover of joy. In winter a lover of wisdom. And when you make a mistake, start all over again. For only then will you be in love with life. 

You will find that to be happy is not to have a perfect life. But use the tears to irrigate tolerance. Use your losses to train patience. Use your mistakes to sculptor serenity. Use pain to plaster pleasure. Use obstacles to open windows of intelligence. 

Never give up.... Never give up on people who love you. Never give up on happiness, for life is an incredible show.* 

(Pope Francis).

I was just writing about me -- mentioning about "...the purpose of life is to be happy...", and I received this message... what a coincidence...

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