I want to thank God for showing to me that He exists and for telling me that there are Purgatory. One night, I dreamt of National University of Singapore. I was walking in the linked shelter --the yellow shelter. I was walking and walking and then later on I saw the scriptures with the word "God's Will" zooming in and then I woke up to see the image of the Singapore Map (the formation of the Clouds) outside my window.
Map of Singapore on 26 August 2008
A Living Sacrifice
Sacrifice of Body and Mind: Romans 12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
2009, I was lying on the bed of Mount Alvernia Hospital
Babies are gifts of life from God. Due to my ignorance and blindness and family circumstances, I aborted my baby after Richard's return. Some couples wanted babies and they couldn't even have any. Here I am, God gave me a new life and I killed it. Now God came to me, telling me it was all wrong. I have to sacrifice. I was given again a new life and this time I learned my lessons, and no matter how hard it may be, I had to keep the baby. The doctor asked me to do test to check if baby was normal. I did not check for any test. It was my faith to trust God, to give me a perfect child despite my old age at that year. So indeed, I gave birth to a perfect child.
Now Richard had left again, and this time he is remarried to another woman. God showed His existence and Jesus asked me to Follow Him. Here I am, living in faith and hope that everything will go on well for my children and family. I will put my trust in God for He works in a miraculous way and He can work wonders.
My first dog that I had was this dog, above, named Baby. Richard drove to the pet shop at Balestier Road one day. The shop owner chose this dog for us, put him in a pen, and we saw him playing so actively with the other dogs. So we decided to buy him. It was a gift from Richard. Richard paid for the dog and on that day he won lottery, gaining the money back...
I doted on him so much. Baby was so pampered. I bought him fresh pork to eat everyday. I cut up the meat and boiled them for him. He always finished the food. Sometimes I gave him minced meat too. He was so used to eating fresh pork that he did not want to eat dried food that was given to him. Every week I bathed him too. We would bring him to Fu Shan Garden for a walk as well.
Look at the photograph above, he was so proud. We specially bought the red cap from Bangkok. If you want to buy a similar cap, Lazada has this red cap that looks nice. Check it out here.
Photograph of Baby and me
Baby loved to guard the door. He always laid at the door, whenever any strangers walked past, he would bark at them. He was such a passionate dog as well. He loved to kiss me, as can be seen from the photograph below.
Photograph of Baby kissing me
I had Baby before I was pregnant. During my pregnancy, I was not able to tend to him at all. In the end, we had to give him away. My fifth uncle adopted him. After that, it was known that Baby was too fierce, his temper was so bad and they had to give him away to other people. That was the last news I heard of him. Forever missed you Baby.
Singaporeans are mostly law abiding and tends to 'listen' to the government. Otherwise there would be fines. So whatever they said people would tend to abide by them. How many women in my family follow this policy? My sister has 2 children, my sister-in-law also has two children. I used to think of only having 2 children too. However, I was wrong.
At the age of 38 I gave birth to another tiny human being. I had to carry my cross and bare all hardship to juggle my pregnancy with caring for the home and children. How precious is a life?
I had Isaac in my womb for nine months. I did not know how much it means to me until I was almost losing it at the time of birth.
There was bleeding and I quickly went to the hospital with Richard. At the hospital, I was asked to lay in the bed to rest.
Photograph of me at Mount Alvernia Hospital 2009
I stayed there for almost one two days and one night then I was pushed to the delivery ward. Over there, I still need to wait for the uterus to open up. It was early in the morning when I still need to wait for the doctor to arrive. By the time I had epidural and the doctor came it was quite some time. Finally the baby came out from my womb.
Isaac cried and the nurse carried him to show me. However later on, the doctor and nurse seemed to be doing something which I did not know. Later on I was informed by the doctor that the baby was in critical state. He was in the womb for too long, and he had eaten his own feaces. The baby was a bit blue. The doctor said the baby need to be pushed to the critical care unit.
At that moment, I was so scared of losing him. I did not want to carry him for nine months and lost him in the end. We prayed. I called home to the children and told them about it. I asked them to help to pray too. Luckily, soon Isaac was fine ultimately. We thanked God that he was well at that moment.
It was a great day. The weather was very good. After sending the children for catechism class, Richard and I cycled to Waterfront. There we saw so many monkeys. People were feeding them food -- watermelon, orange, and so on. I spotted this mother monkey carrying her baby.
7.9.2008: Somewhere around Waterfront a monkey carrying her baby was spotted.
7.9.2008 : Picture of a special blue bird that I sighted as I was cycling on the way to Sembawang Park.
After Waterfront, we cycled to Sembawang Park. On the way, I spotted this bird which was flying, and when I noticed it, it just stopped for me to take photograph of it! How amazing! And this was the first time I spotted this kind of blue bird.
We continued to cycle and soon we reach Sembawang Park. We were both sweating. This was the place we had our wedding photo shoot.
7.9.2008 : Picture of a Richard and I standing at the spot where we had our wedding photograph.
Little do I know that I was pregnant by then. It was only later that I had missed my menstruation and had the 'symptoms' of pregnancy that I knew I was pregnant in the later weeks. My birthday was the next day. Richard told me that that was a birthday present for me.
30.9.2008 Photograph of ultrasound scan showing the baby's heartbeat
I have a new life ever since Jesus came. Everyday was a different day. Little did I know that this new life that I have will result in another new life...
There are certainly spirits in the air. It takes me years to experience and to conclude the existence of angels and God.
Since young, I had been 'accompanied' by spirits, or are they angels? There were sounds in the middle of the night and things dropped when there were not even wind. Even my sister had scratches on her body when she woke up. Who had done those scatches?
In my old house, I had a pet dog named Baby. He would bark at the kitchen, barking in the air as we seen it, but we could not see anything. He even tried to fight with it. Not one time but several times.
If this evidence of spirits are not sufficient, there is another dog, named Cebest. Cebest was my second dog. He died on his third years of life. Before his death, he saw something at the gate that seem to have come into the house. He chased 'the spirit' (what we cannot see) from the gate to the inside of the house, to the bedroom. Then he kept barking, just like what Baby encounter.
After that day, Cebest became very ill. That day he had his vaccination too. So did he just met his death angel? He kept 'hiding' in the store room, very weak to move. I asked Richard, "Shall we bring Cebest to the vet?" He said, "Wait till tomorrow see how."
But everything happened so fast. Cebest was not able to wait till the next day. He laid down on the bed with me that faithful night. I slept and was suddenly awoken to attend to Cebest to see how he was. I could see that he was in critical condition. I told Richard and I made a call to the vet. Then we send him to the vet. There, the vet gave him a jab. However, still it was no use. Cebest died.
After his death, his spirit came back. One night, I was able to hear his bell and my leg kicked on something. It was Cebest, at the bottom end of the bed. He had come home. But now so many years had past, and I had no experience of Cebest's spirit already. I think he had gone to the rainbow bridge already.
According to CCC 336, Catechism of the Catholic Church, Beside each believer stands an angel as protector and shepherd leading him to life. We are each assigned a guardian angel. I experienced it several time during my motherhood time.
Raising my first child, Ricsson, I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night, to see him almost dropping on the floor on the bed. He was lying at the edge of the bed. He slept with me on the bed. I always wondered why would I always able to wake up during the opportune timing? Finding and seeing that he was at the edge, I quickly carried him back to safety.
Another occasion was when Ricsson was bathing. I had a bath tub in the old house last time. Ricsson loved to play in the bath tub. On one occasion, I left him to play. Then while I was away, or not paying attention, suddenly I just walked past the toilet and saw Ricsson almost drown. He slipped into the water. I quickly brought him up. Saving him again.
When Ricsson was just a few days old, he was very sick. One day, he awoke with swollen face. I noticed the change in him. I quickly sent him to the doctor, despite my mother-in-law who said, "It's normal for babies to be sick." At the doctor, I was told to rush him to the hospital immediately. There he was treated for Meningitis. Luckily I did not delay.
How do I know of all these? It was life's reflection and also what I learned from the priest, the homily. I learned from Father Terence that our wisdom is from God, and how angels communicate with us is through the input of message into our brain. From that onwards, it all make sense.
