Unseen Relationship

 

Taco in the VES hospital on 22 June 2025

Jesus Reinstates Peter (John 21:15-19)

15 When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” “Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.” Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.” 16 Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.” Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.” 17 The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.” Jesus said, “Feed my sheep. 18 Very truly I tell you, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go.” 19 Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, “Follow me!” 

 Do I love God?  This is a question I ask myself and also reflected when I saw instagram post when people ask, "Do you love God?" and also when I read the scripture above.  

I used to tell myself, we cannot see God, how to love someone whom we cannot see?  That was like in my 30s or 40s. Now this question come back again...

Yesterday I brought Taco home from VES hospital (Veterinary Emergency and Speciality Hospital) (Whitley), he was sent to the hospital on Sunday due to urinary obstruction.  I was so happy when I learned that he could be sent home yesterday.  I was thankful to Jesus for bringing Taco back to me again.  On Sunday I was so worried for Taco.  The vet told me the procedure and the risk just in case Taco would not respond and need to do CPR.  She asked me, "Do you want us to do CPR on Taco?"  Taco is just 3 years 5 months old.  To do CPR, they would charge around $200++.  The hospital bill that I need to pay was already more than $1400++.  I told them of course I want to save my cat.  I love Taco.  I always see nice cats or special cats at the vet and even in VES hospital.  But deep in my heart, I still want Taco and love Taco, I don't want any other cat.  

Taco's neighbour in the hospital

The above cat is nice and they are special cat, unlike Taco, a domestic stray cat.  But still I love Taco more.  When I left the hospital to go home (while Taco was under the care of the vet to do the unblocking of the urinary tract), I immediately asked Jesus to save Taco and protect Taco.  I do not want to lose Taco.  I realized that Jesus had always helped me since young.  And I had always seek His help.  I did not realize that it was a relationship until Father Terence's homily enlightened me in this point. 

I realize that Jesus is always helping me in relieving my 'stress' or burden.  He is the one I turned to for help always.  So Do I love God?  I am still asking my heart, but I should say I love Him, especially for saving me, saving my soul by dying on the cross for men on earth.  Thank you Jesus.

Matthew 11:28-30 --  28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” 

Great Is Thy Faithfulness

 

 Great Is Thy Faithfulness 

1. Great is thy faithfulness, O God my Father.

     There is no shadow of turning with thee;

     Thou changest not, thy compassion, they fail not;

     As Thou hast been thou forever will be.   (Refrain)

Refrain:

Great is Thy faithfulness!

Great is Thy faithfulness!

Morning by morning new mercies I see; 

All I have needed Thy hand hath provided.

Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me.

2.  Summer and winter and springtime and harvest, Sun, moon and stars in their courses above Join with all nature in manifold witness To Thy great faithfulness, mercy and love.  (Refrain)

3.  Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide.  

     Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow, Blessings all mine with ten thousand beside!                 (Refrain)

    

Spirit of God

 

Spirit of God

1.  Spirit of God in the clear running water

     Blowing to greatness the trees on the hill.

     Spirit of God in the finger of morning

     fill the earth bring it to birth

     and blow where You will.

Chorus:

Blow, blow, blow till I be

But breath of the Spirit blowing in me.

2.  Down in the meadow the willows are moaning,

     sheep in the pasture land cannot lie still.

     Spirit of God, creation is groaning,

     fill the earth bring it to birth

     and blow where You will.

3.  Spirit of God, ev'ry man's heart is lonely,

     watching and waiting and hungry until,

     Spirit of God, man longs that You only

     fulfil the earth bring it to birth

     and blow where You will.

Spirit Song

Spirit Song

O, let the Son of God enfold you

with His spirit and His love.

Let Him fill your heart and satisfy your soul.

O, let Him have the things that hold you 

and His spirit like a dove,

Will descend upon your life and make you whole

Chorus:

Jesus, O, Jesus

Come and fill Your lambs

Jesus, O, Jesus

Come and fill Your lambs

O, come and sing this song with gladness

as your hearts are filled with joy.

Lift your hands in sweet surrender to His name.

O, give Him all your tears and sadness,

give Him all your years of pain.

And you'll enter into life in Jesus' name.

All Man's Labour Can Produce

All Man's Labour Can Produce

Refrain: 

May this lowly bread and wine

Be the sacrifice divine

Of our Saviour Jesus Christ!

Of our Saviour Jesus Christ!

1.  All man's labour can produce,

    You have given for our use;

     Take, O Lord, our offering!

2. On this gift of bread and wine,

    Of our sacrifice a sign,

    Father, look with favour now!

3.  May this food which strength imparts,

     Bring refreshment to our hearts, 

     And a taste of joy to come!

St Anthony Church

 

Photo of St Anthony Church from far

I took the above picture and the pictures below yesterday.  I wanted to show the present now as compared to the St Anthony of several years back. The signage had been changed also but the words remains the same.  It read: Church of St Anthony: God Knows Your Past and He Offers You A Future

Closer view of St Anthony Church 

Closeup view of the signage of the church

I have stayed in Woodlands for close to 30years.  Over the years I had seen the changes to the church -- the priests, the premises and the eucharistic celebrations.  In the early years the priests were Father John Khoo and Father Eugene Chong.  Now Father Eugene is back.  After that it was Father Vincent Chee, Father Terence and Father Cyril.  Next, it was Father Andrew, Father Gerard, Father John Lau... and now Father Ignatius.  

I am very happy with the present church.  In the past, the speaker was not so good, I could not really hear the homily well from the back of the church.  Now the speaker is good, the priest speak audibly well, loud and clear.  I love to listen to their homily.  

This is the church where Richard had his baptism and confirmation.  Last time it was RCIA.  My 3 children had their baptism in this church also.  They attended catechism classes here, received their First Holy Communion but never finished confirmation. 

Mother Mary

 

Our Lady of Sorrows at St Anthony Church

Today 8 June 2025, I went to church.  It was Pentecost day.  There were incense and the priest wore red vestment.  The vestment was so nice.  There was a white dove on the vestment of Father Eugene.  After mass was over, I walked towards the above image where I saw everytime I went to mass.  Walking over there, I realised that the image was Our Lady of Sorrows.  This is a new addition to the renovated new church.  

Devotion to Our Lady’s Sorrows has existed since the early centuries of the Church. It came into particular focus in the 13th century when Our Lady appeared to the Seven Founders of the Servite Order, giving them a black garment as their habit and asking them to meditate on her Sorrows. In the 14th century, Our Lady revealed to St. Bridget of Sweden seven special graces that she would grant to those devoted to her Sorrows. She spoke at length to St. Bridget about the Passion of her Son and her own Sorrows, and made these promises to those who would say seven Hail Marys daily while meditating on her tears and sufferings: 

1.  I will grant peace to their families. 

2.  They will be enlightened about the divine mysteries. 

3.  I will console them in their pains and I will accompany them in their work. 

4.  I will give them as much as they as for as long as it does not oppose the adorable will of my Divine Son or the sanctification of their souls. 

5.  I will protect them against the infernal enemy and I will protect them at every instant of their lives. 

6.  I will visibly help them at the moment of their death; they will see the face of their Mother. 

7.  I have obtained the grace from my Divine Son, that those who propagate this devotion to my tears and dolors, will be taken directly from this earthly life to eternal happiness since all their sins will be forgiven and my Son and I will be their eternal consolation and joy. 

 Our Lady also told Marie Claire, one of the three Kibeho visionaries, that with the recitation of her Seven Sorrows Rosary: 

- The hardest hearts will change. 

- They shall be freed from obsessions and addictions. 

- They will find the strength to repent and convert their hearts. 

- They will obtain an understanding of the weaknesses that lead them to sin. 

- Praying it from the heart, they will obtain whatever they ask.

Closer look at Our Lady of Sorrows

Lobster Meal

 

Lobster Stew Bee Hoon from Pin Wei Seafood Village

This plate of lobster bee hoon cost $177.60.  We went to Limbang Shopping mall to have our Mother's day celebration last month.  This is a newly opened restaurant, so we wanted to try it out.  We also order soon hock fish and it was so expensive.  It cost $99.  

Soon Hock Fish, $99

Though it is expensive, it is very nice.  The fish is so fresh.  So I still think it is worth it.  See more pictures of the meal, what we ordered and our pictures on this link here.  

Receipt for the meal at Pin Wei Seafood Village

Lucky can use CDC voucher and I forked out a final cash of $180.14.  For this amount of money spent, I got back $20 vouchers from them.  

Epson Printer L4366

 

New Epson Printer L4366 

Bought a new Epson printer L4366.  I had been using Epson printer since 2015.  I had changed printers for 3 times.  This is the third time I buy Epson printer.  This is also the most expensive printer I had bought.  This Epson printer L4366 cost $444.60.  I bought it at Lazada, after deducting a $20 coupon, I paid $424.60.  

Epson printer saves ink and can print many papers.   This is the best Epson printer so far.  It can print both sides without me having to take out the paper and feed it in again.  The older model of Epson need me to take out the paper and then put it back again if I wanted to print both sides.  Sometimes I forget the correct alignment to put in the feeder tray.  With this new printer L4366, I do not need to worry about taking out the paper and putting it back to print the other sides of the paper.  Just choose from the handphone app what you want to print, double sided, colour, and so on, and the document is all ready to be printed out.  When its done printing, you collect your documents and you just need to bind the copy.  You don't need to sort the papers too.  

The best printer so far really.  It can print documents and photos directly from my handphone.  I don't need to on my computer.  All you need is connect the printer to a power source, connect to wifi and install Epson Smart Panel app on your handphone.  Then you can print your documents and photos already.  I love it so much.  Click this link to see the short video of my printer printing my document.  

YouTube Peacebelle

 

Screenshot of my Youtube Peacebelle channel

I am very happy that Isaac had helped me to retrieve my Peacebelle account in Youtube.  For ten over years I had no access to it.  One night I told Isaac about it and he helped me.  Thank You so much Isaac.  I love nature, plants and decide to put the greens header with water on top as shown.  It signified that there is life as the plants are green and there are water flowing.  My Peacebelle icon is a woman watering the flowering plants, with smile on the face.  It shows my love for plants with my daily watering for them. 

I am sharing the good news of Jesus.  It is like me growing plants in the garden.  Some seeds grow well and some seeds don't get to grow.  This is like what Jesus said about The Parable of the sower:  A farmer went out to sow his seed.  As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up.  Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow.  But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. Whoever has ears, let them hear.  ~Matthew 13: 3-9

My intention is to 'make disciples of all nations'...  In my family, though we are Catholic, not all the children went for Catechism.  Some dropped out of Catechism after Holy Communion and never get went through the sacrament of confirmation.  Some don't go church and turn away from the church... Over here, I share my experience and hope that in time to come even my own children would turn to Jesus and they will have the passion to go to the church one day...

At Peacebelle, I had uploaded videos of mass hymns and prayers (components of the mass) which I had found inspiring and uplifting.  Thus I am sharing the show people a glimpse of our Catholic faith.  But I am still learning and I am not a perfect Catholic either.  But I got a book by chance as shown below: 

Imitation of Christ by Thomas A Kempis

  

I hope that after reading this book, The Imitation of Christ,  I can be a better person, a good disciple of Jesus... sharing Jesus

The above video is taken last night when I went to mass for the Ascension of the Lord, Holy Thursday Mass --Ascension Day is the 40th day after Easter and was the final day when Jesus was seen by his disciples.  The day is also known as the Feast of Ascension or Holy Thursday --the ascent of Jesus Christ into heaven on the 40th day after his Resurrection...  and on this day I got news of my mother has Chronic Kidney Disease Stage 3a...

CKD Stage 3a

The flowers in my corridor garden taken this morning

This morning I went out of the house happy because I can see the beautiful flowers in my garden -- orange flower, pink flower, purple flowers and white flower. There is a bird nest also hanging on the water jasmine plant.  After taking the pictures and video, I left the house heading to Khoo Teck Puat Hospital.

X-ray of my teeth, on the left was x-ray taken last year and on the right is x-ray taken today

Dentist said that I need to go back to checkup next year again because the bones are not growing well.  There was not much growth.  Then he booked another appointment for me because he suspected me to be grinding my teeth at night when I sleep.  I told him that I am having teeth pain.  I am very glad that he reaffirmed that my teeth have no decay tooth, its all clean; gums are healthy too.  

My mother sent this picture to the chat group

Later in the afternoon, I got message from my sister.  She said that mum's kidney is no good.  I checked the internet and got to know the meaning of the words above.  Mum is having Chronic Kidney Disease stage 3a now.  It is sad news.  I want to spend more time with her still.  

Today is Holy Thursday, the feast of ascension of the Lord.  I went to church for 8pm mass at St Anthony Church.  I was sad throughout the mass.  After receiving holy communion, the hymn of I am the bread of life was sung.  I was so emotional.  It reminded me of Jesus came to me to save me and I thanked Jesus for that, and yet I am sad that my mother's health is no good...  I don't want to lose my mother...

Cockatiel Kumo

 

This is Cockatiel Kumo resting on my shoulder

I never dream that I would have a cockatiel.  I had never even thought of it or seen a bird so beautiful before.  But on 10 May 2025, a Saturday, I had to go to work because the workplace, mft got an event there.  The event was Vesak Day Event, a day of prayers, bathing of buddha and transference of light.  The event will start at 630pm, work starts at 6pm and I began walking there before 530pm.  

As I was walking between the blocks of flats at the linkage shelter, I saw a beautiful bird on the floor.  People were walking and no one seem to care about the bird.  I thought that the bird belongs to somebody.  But it was so beautiful, I did not want to miss the beautiful moment, I quickly take photo of it.  It still stay there.  So I took video of it.  It still never fly off.  Then I stretched out my hand and surprisingly, it hopped onto my hand.  Thereafter, I had a thought of bringing it home.  

On the way home, it never fly off either.  I had the bird put at home and asked Isaac to take good care of it while I went to work.  After work, the bird was still at home.  We searched online on information about this beautiful bird and came to know that it was an expensive bird that cost about $200 and it came from Australia.  

We decided to keep it as a pet after some thoughts.  The next day after church, I went to buy the cage and food for him.  It was so nice to see him able to enjoy eating the food that we gave him.  He was able to drink water and even sing songs too.  What a wonderful bird it was.  Isaac thought of a name for him, which was Kumo, in Japan means cloud.  

Everyday we let him out of the cage to enjoy some freedom.  He loves to go to our shoulders.  However with him around, Taco was too scared, he began to go into hiding and often stay in the kitchen.  When I was at work, I would come back during lunch time to take a look at them.  

Anyway, last week, on 17 May 2025, we lost Kumo.  Isaac was bathing and he put Kumo in the bathroom.  When he sneezed, Kumo was scared and he flew out of the window.  That was the last time we had him.  We went out to search for him but we was not able to find him anymore.  We had him for 7days and it was good.  

Video of Kumo singing and eating 

Happy Mother's Day

 

Photo of St Anthony church on 6 April 2025, 5th Sunday of Lent

I went to church on 6 April 2025, my first step into the church after its renovation.  My official first mass there.  I went to confession and told the priest I am divorce and he told me I had no sin in this.  I am so relieved.  I am able to receive holy communion again.  

Ever since I started going back to church, beautiful things happened.  It must be God feeling happy for me to go back to church.  My garden has sunbirds flying and chirping.  They came to make nest again.  I had a bird nest outside in my garden now.  I feel so happy.

The beautiful bird nest in my garden

I got a cockatiel bird this Mother's Day!

Clara gave me a bouquet of beautiful flowers too

It was a good month of Happy Mother's Day.  I celebrated with my mother too.  I treated her to Pin Wei Seafood Village for a dinner.  This is indeed a blissful life.  

Come Back To Me

 

Photo taken on 18 March 2024

Photo taken on 28 May 2024

Everytime I cycled passed the church, I would look at it.  I had not been to the church for many years.  I had not stepped into the church after the renovation.  I think I miss the church.  On 18 March 2024, I saw the banner : Come Back To Me.  It is like God telling me to go back to him.  Then on 28 May I passed by again and I see the signboard "Come And Find Peace", it reminded me of last time I went to church with the family.  

January 2024, I had dry mouth.  I prayed to Mother Mary because at the workplace one day, the hymn of Lourdes prayer.  I was not aware of the title of the hymn but I went home to search for it and then I know about it.  

Photo of Mary taken at St Anthony Church: I stood there to pray for a suitable job and to heal my dry mouth

Now then I know this is Our Lady of Lourdes.  And I know that the hymn which originated from my heart is Our Lourdes Prayer.  Now my dry mouth had improved.  Last year, it was totally no saliva.  And when the 'music' came, in the evening, the saliva just come and it feel so good to have saliva.  

The Lourdes Prayer, the song that came to me in January 2024.  

Now I had already gone back to church...  

St Joseph Church

 

Photograph of Patrick, Mary and me at St Joseph Church, in front of St Joseph statue

Yesterday was the feast day of St Joseph at Bukit Timah.  The church celebrated her 179th year.  There are so much changes over the years... the bare grounds where Richard and I had sat to take photograph many years back, had now transformed into beautiful objects.  I had missed mass for so long.  The last time I went to St Joseph Church for mass was 15 years ago.  Yesterday we met at woodlands bus interchange at 8am.  We intend to take bus 961 to the church.  At the bus interchange, we could not find the berth for 961.  Later we realized that it was at the old bus interchange, and on Sunday, we would only take 961M.  

The bus journey took approximately 50min and after alighting we need to walk a short distance to reach the church entrance.  It was so nice to be able to come to this church again.  I had mass with my sister and brother-in-law at 930am.  It was so good to have companionship to have people to attend mass with me. 

When we reached the church, we walked around the church and went to Chapel of Resurrection to visit our departed loved ones there.  We took so many photographs and we bought things from the booth.  My sister paid $2 to do a henna on her hand.   

 

This is a video I had made showing some external and internal of the church.  I am still learning to make video and this is not the best but viewable.  

Before the mass started, we went to sit down earlier.  We got our seat near the choir.  The mass started at 930am sharp, and throughout the mass whenever hymns were sung, the songs and music were wonderful, loud and clear.  We loved it so much.  

After the church, we went to Bukit Timah to buy lunch (frog legs).

Buy Me Tea

Divine lot

                                                 I cast a lot and this is the result that I get

Today is election day.  I did not know who to vote.  Before I went to the school, I wrote two sheets of notes with the party name, PAP and SDP. Then I folded the papers to be exactly the same.  I do not know which is which later once I put them in my hands.  

This is my altar in the house

I walk to the altar with the 2 folded papers in my hands.  I looked at the statues, the cross, my father and Dora there.  I prayed to God, and my father to give me an answer as to who to vote.  Slowly, one of the paper dropped out from my hands as I cast the lots.  I picked up the one on the floor.  I opened it and it was PAP.  As I picked up the lot, I have something on my mind.  What if it means the one in my hand?  

So I think I will try again, this time more precise in what I prayed.  The same as above, but this time, as usual, the answer will be the one on the floor.  Once I had finished praying, a lot fell out onto the floor.  I picked it up, unfold and again it was PAP.  

With this answer, I make up my mind to vote for PAP.  If my father were to vote, he would have chosen PAP.  

So I walked to the school.  I had forgotten to bring the polling card.  Luckily can use epoll card in singpass.  There was no crowds when I went at around 130pm.  Everything went smoothly and within 15min I was back home.

 Buy Me Tea