I was cycling back to home from 888 Plaza and I saw the banner that reads "Jesus Changes Everything" outside Woodlands Evangelical Free Church. It makes me ponder. Indeed Jesus had made everything different for me now. In my past, everyday was like the same to me, nothing new everyday, waking up, do blogging, do housework, went to work and so on.
But after I had experienced the miracles of transcendence and life changes (the miraculous water bath) after Jesus came to me everyday is different to me. Everyday is new and everyday experiencing changes.
Photograph of the primary school students and me at my old home
During the holidays, I was offered relief teaching at the primary school near my home at that time. It was Boon Lay Garden Primary School. I was offered to teach the students for a term. At the end of the term, they wanted to come to my house and we spent some time at home. It was fun time to be with the children.
When the holidays ended, I began my studies at National University of Singapore. I was a part time tutor at night. Children called me 'teacher'. After graduation from NUS, I worked at a tuition centre for a few months. I was happy teaching and love being a teacher at that time. Later on, I was offered to be a teacher or environmental health officer. I chose to be a teacher. However I did not know that I need to take English test to be offered a permanent post. So I worked for one year at Admiralty Primary School and I was pregnant later, so quitted the job.
I stopped teaching after having two children to care for, and I tried to take the English proficiency test. I never get to pass. Several years later, I tried again. This time I failed again. I tried two times and I failed. I did not want to try any more and I became a homemaker after that...
Six years ago, I saw an advertisement at Facebook, looking for Childcare teacher, and I went for interview. I got a job and went training to become a Childcare Teacher. I worked at the Childcare centre for five years and then I decided to quit. It was quite okay to 'teach' in the childcare centre. However it was so different as compared to teaching the primary school students. The working environment and the people I worked with are so different.
Everyday, the children called me Teacher, principal and teachers also addressed each other as Teacher. A few days back, as I was taking orders from the shopping centre, crossing the road, I heard a voice saying, "Hey, your teacher!" I wanted to turn back to see who it was, but I did not. I was rushing to go deliver the food. I supposed it must be one of the children in the childcare centres.
Then I began to think, do I like people to call me 'teacher'? Probably not now already. It takes so much to be a great teacher, someone like Jesus. Imagine Jesus came and ask me to follow him. I am a disciple of Jesus. I am not someone great, a divorcee, and it takes so much to be a role model teacher.
"Who do you say I am?" Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God." Jesus replied, "Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by man, but by my Father in heaven. (Matthew 16:16-17)
My Sacred Heart Jesus which was blessed by Father Vincent Chee
And when he was gone forth into the way, there came one running, and kneeled to him, and asked him, Good Master, what shall I do that I may inherit eternal life? (Mark 10:17)
Jesus is my master, my teacher. Follow Jesus if you want to be saved.
Photograph showing the white cross on the cardboard box that Dora had loved.
To write or not to write. To hide or not to hide. Finally I had decided to publicize my blog again after so many months of stopping and 'hiding'.
I cannot earn much from online. So I found a job in the childcare industry. I quit my full-time job after some years working with them. Now I am back to write again. Why? I find that I must 'tell' and 'share' if I had discovered the truth. I had witnessed IT and I had to share to tell the truth, the truth about Jesus, the presence and existence of God, the blessed trinity.
I saw on Tik Tok, a man asking or wondering to abort their baby. He talked until so easy, asking girlfriend to abort the child. As I had experienced before, I would not advise women to abort their baby anymore! It's a life lost.
A life is so precious. Take my cat for example. Dora was just gone in an instant on that night of Chinese New Year Eve. She was our precious cat, giving us joy and companionship all the time of her life. But just for a moment she was around, but for the next moment she was gone...
Not everybody knows the values of a life. So I feel that since I had experienced it, I should do something to reveal the truth. If Jesus shown his love for me and had forgiven my sins, then I should bare all the embarrassment and pluck my courage to reveal the truth.
The Parable of the Lost Sheep: … What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them goes astray, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go out to search for the one that is lost? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he rejoices more over that one sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray.…
~Matthew:18:12-13
Just want to mention my favicon for this blog, Happiness For Life. It is a woman looking up to an angel. This angel can be the guardian angel, or it can also be Jesus, the king of angels. The woman looking at the higher superior being is readily abiding by all the words given by the angel or Jesus, the one who will show the truth, the Way and the Life.
Photograph of Jesus carrying the woman who needs help
Photograph of Jesus trying to rescue the lost sheep
Why does the woman have so much respect for the king of angel? This is because He had come to the rescue in times of need. The woman was dead and was being rescued. The woman was lost and was found. All thanks to Jesus.
“It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life.” John 6:63.
“But Simon Peter answered Him, ‘Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.’” John 6:68.
You can see at my Peace NatureYouTube channel: I instruct you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. Proverbs 4:11 So these are the words that were uttered to the woman.
One day while walking on the way to 888 Plaza, a pigeon dropped down from its urban home, the modern nest that they build. I was saying that it's so hard to find a nest in Singapore. And I saw one nest that come to build in my corridor garden, a natural nest build by the sunbird itself. How spectacular was that!
My father also brought home a pigeon one day. I was so amazed with it. That was the first time I saw a pigeon in my old house with my parents. My father loved nature too. He loved to watch animals documentaries too. He loved to fish. He was a good fisherman and he specially went hunting for frogs to cook for me to eat so that my legs would be strong when I was young. My parents were farmers too.
My father often talked about saving lives. He would say in Teochew, 'Qyou4 Nan1' (Teochew) which means saving lives, 救人。He was also a kind hearted soul who loves to help people. So he always mentioned that if wanted to save lives, people must not charge any money. This is because he encountered many 'medium' who charged my mother thousands of dollars...
Today my father is gone. By faith, we know that he is in better place now. I am sure he would be saving lives.
To think that I was a Catholic since birth, I am a Christian and yet I did not know that being Christian means that we will be saved by God! I must thank Jesus and God for coming to me to show me, to let me experience and to save my soul. This was assurance of salvation. If I had sinned and I was saved, so can you.
Jesus said, "Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life." John 5:24
You can depend upon this promise. It means what it says. Eternal life is what you receive when you receive Jesus Christ by faith as your personal Saviour. The God 'who cannot lie' (Titus 1:2) says, "He who hears My word and believes...has eternal life." We can base our assurance of salvation on the words of Jesus with total confidence.
One glorious day Jesus Christ will return as a Conqueror to take His children to be with Him. "And thus we shall always be with the Lord". (1 Thess 4:17). We do not know the day nor the hour when this great event will take place. "For the Son of Man is coming at an hour when you do not think He will." (Matthew 24:44) Until that day we must live and work for the Lord.
Above: 11 April 2010 -- A flock of pigeons at the neighbourhood while we were walking to the church.
11 May 2010 at church of St Anthony of Padua
Jesus loves to share with stories and parables. In Christianity, there were so many symbolism too. According to Exemplore, it says that birds have become prominent symbols all throughout the world and across various cultures. They are often seen as the supernatural link between Heaven and the living here on Earth. In certain cultures and religions, like those of the Middle East or Asia, birds represent immortality. In the traditions of the original peoples of North America and in East Indian myth, birds are considered departed souls or spirit messengers. In Christianity, birds can represent peace or may be used to symbolize a saved soul
Matthew 9:10-17While Jesus was having dinner at Matthew’s house, many tax collectors and sinners came and ate with him and his disciples. When the Pharisees saw this, they asked his disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?” On hearing this, Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”
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Do you understand what this means? If I just said, some people might not believe what I said without any proof. And there was no eye witness. It happened in the bathroom, it happened while I was awoke and everybody were sleeping. Who would believe what I said? Am I in the right mind? So I encountered all these sightings so that you might believe what I said.
Jesus is the pure one, depicted in white. I had NEVER ever seen a white dove before in my life until 11 April 2010. Of course I had seen white dove in magic show. But that was what they purchase in commercial. What I mean is in nature. So Jesus is the unblemished one. Yet he had come to mix with the impure ones, as can see from the pigeons. The white one symbolized Jesus and the mixture of black and white ones symbolized the sinners.
In the photograph above from church of St Anthony of Padua, Jesus was resurrected from the tomb. He was dressed in white.
So I am the lost lamb, a sinner, that Jesus had saved. Just like Jesus had resurrected, I was dead and was resurrected too. He had saved my soul.
Today we celebrates my father's 48th day of his passing. Tomorrow will be 49th day. My mother cooked his favourite dishes and my brother bought his favourite food to pray to him.
Many years ago, before Jesus came, I would be scared that I would lost my parents one day. I always pray for their safety and for them to have a long life. I am scared that I would not be able to see them anymore should one day they died. However, after I had experienced 'death' and resurrection myself, I do not fear death anymore.
It was written in the scripture that Jesus died and resurrected. And in today's prayer at the columbarium, we had a reading from the first letter of St Paul to the Thessalonians -- 1Thess 4:13-18
Believers Who Have Died: Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. According to the Lord’s word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage one another with these words.
Yes, I experienced it myself on that night of transcendence -- I was not sleeping. I was closing my eyes. Then at the point of transcendence, God came. My room was so filled with white light, so bright until even though I closed my eyes, my eyes could experience light. (No wonder St Paul's/Saul's eyes were blinded by the light of Jesus on the way to Damascus -- Acts 9:1-19 , for me I was so scared, I do not dare to open my eyes.) There were 3 flashes of light, and various sound I heard later on on both ears -- birds, dogs and wolves. After that it was victory at last with the blowing of the trumpet sound. It was dawn by then. Beside me was Richard, all asleep the whole while.
And my father often mention the words "Hock Wack" meaning Jesus 复活。 So I believe my father will be resurrected too.
This is a picture of me and my father. I must thank my sister for being the photographers for families events. Without her, I would have no memoir to keep. I must also thank my father for supporting me, paying all the education fees for my studies. And yet I had not repay him...
Jesus said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." (John 8:12)
I learned this song during my catechism class. I did not like to attend catechism class last time. My attendance was very bad. One day, my mother dragged me till opposite the church. But I just refused to attend the class...
It was just a song that I learned at that time. It probably had no meaning at all at that time. However, things were different ever since Jesus came. God told me that there were purgatory and my sins were forgiven. Prior to this, I went to the church to confess my sins.
Jesus said, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. (Matthew 9:12)
I was sick and dead. Jesus came to the sinner's house. I am so touched. He had died to save me. It's bliss I found. I want to Pass it on.
Jesus once told a story about a cute little lamb that lived in a pasture with 99 other sheep. The shepherd took very good care of his sheep. He fed them, gave them water, and chased away wild animals. But one day, the shepherd noticed his lamb was missing. Right away, he left the other 99 and went looking. When he found the lamb he rejoiced.
Now when I listened to this song, I can feel God's love. It feels so good that I am being saved. So I want to invite you to come to Jesus and experienced His love.
It took me 38 years for God to answer my prayer. God answers prayer -- I wondered why God never speak to people in present life, but only Spoken in the past. So God still speak to us.
Follow Jesus. Jesus said: “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” (John 14:6).
Jesus always taught people using parables and He is a great teacher because He is able to cure the sick, the blind and even bring the dead back to life.
Jesus had always perform miracles. I had never experienced miracles before. However, I had experienced miracle on the day where Jesus came to save me. He came to 'wash my feet' -- I had the most wonderful shower on that day, perfectly cleanse. I felt so good and so refreshed.
Jesus did miracles for two reasons -- to show His love for people and to prove that He is God and has all power to heal and to give eternal life to those who believe in Him.
If Jesus had not come, I would probably end up in Hell and purgatory. I was the lamb that he saved. I was a sinner and yet He came to save me. I was the lost sheep and He came to rescued me.
Matthew 18:12-14 and Luke 15:3-7: The Little Lost Lamb
Jesus once told a story about a little lamb that lived in a pasture with 99 other sheep. The shepherd took very good care of his sheep. He fed them, gave them water, and chased away wild animals. But one day, the shepherd noticed his lamb was missing. Right away, he left the other 99 and went looking. When he found the lamb he was very happy.
Looking at the picture of Jesus carrying the lost lamb (before Jesus came), I always wondered how it felt like. So I always tried carrying Cebest to have a feel of it.
Back to the miracle. And I still remember the day when Richard and I went to Marsiling to eat Bak Kut Teh (his favourite), I just drink the soup. On that day, the soup was never dry! I kept drinking the soup and the water level was always the same! Isn't it a miracle as well? I can still remember also that on the way to the Bak Kut Teh, we cycled there by the way, and there was a green slim snake dropped just in front of him. I was a little behind him, so I saw everything. He was so scared.
Matthew 14:16-21, Mark 6:35-44, Luke 9:12-17, John 6:5-14 Jesus Feed the 5000 men and their families.
I really never believe in miracles, but after this incident, there really is such things called miracles.
The golem, showing Victory over sins
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57)
It's 13 years since Jesus came to me, and he said "Follow Me".
I was dead and was then given a new life till now. What does it means to follow him?
I was lost but found by Christ. I wanted to acknowledge that I am a Catholic, a christian and a follower of Christ.
In the past, an interviewer asked me, "Are you a Christian?" I told him, "No, I am not a Christian."
I even shifted all the Catholic statues out of the house, put them in the corridor cupboard and then brought them to my mother's house. I stopped praying to Jesus. I stopped going to church also.
But because of something which I had done many years back, I was saved.
What did I do? I thought that since my sister can do it, I will do it too. Can you guess what I did?
It's not a glamourous thing to do. It is my own flesh and blood. I killed it. But I did not know that I actually killed it. I was blinded. Doing things without knowing it. I was dead. Even at the clinic, I told them I wanted abortion, they did not stop me. They just let me sign papers. They were supposed to tell me the consequences of abortion, which until now I don't know. I asked the nurse, but she never told me the answers -- what effect does it have? She just told me some 'unrelated stuff' about her husband. "You know lah, man ....." things like that. And at that time, I happened to know the nurse. It was someone I knew at the workplace. She had changed her workplace.
So I never know that I had sinned, greatly sinned.
What's more, after that then I realized that my father had taught me that, "If you have a mortal sin, you cannot receive holy communion." Oh, how greatly I had sinned. Not only do I have mortal sins but also venial sins.
Before my husband came back, we committed adulteries too. He had new girlfriend and I had my boyfriend. So wretched, so badly sinned.
Then I wanted my children to raise up as good Catholics. I started to go church. Little did I know that I had done the wrong things. I never went for confession (reconciliation) and I just went forward to receive Holy Communion. It really never come to my mind what my father had taught me.
So the miraculous things happened on 8 March 2008. I had a dream of Jesus, telling me about 'Singapore'. I woke up and I heard him saying, "Follow Me". I was so broken. I cried for all my sins. Next, I walked to the window and I saw the 'map of Singapore' in the clouds. And Jesus was saying I am the bread of life. Back then I have no idea at all Jesus was the bread of life! I learned from my dreams! During my bath, I was 'cleansed' and washed again with new spirit... Jesus helped me to wash away all the evil spirits.
Now, Jesus said, "Take up your cross and follow me." (Matthew 16:24, Mark 8:34 and Luke 9:23)
If I want to follow him I have to take up my cross. I am still learning now how to take up my cross.
Photographs showing the map of Singapore. Picture taken from my window.
