Consent for Operation
The gynae asked me to sign the paper after I told him that I want to abort my baby. At that time, the foetus was just 6 weeks old. I signed the paper and was asked to pass the paper to the nurse. It was mention that the nature and effect of the surgery was explained to me. In actual fact, nothing was explained to me. No explanation from the gynae. No explanation from the nurse. So I asked the nurse, what is the effects of the surgery, she did not tell me.
In my mind was to just abort the baby. So I did not ask more already.
I killed my baby on 8 October 2002
I don't know what effects the abortion will have on my body. I don't know how it will affect me spiritually too. I just knew that my sister had abortion before and she was fine. So I should be fine too. I thought that abortion is okay. It did not occur to me that I was killing my baby at that time.
I learned from my sister that in SGH, if you want to abort the baby, they will try to stop you from doing it. They let you watch a video on how life is formed. Over here at the clinic, nothing was done to stop me at all. I think it was all fated anyway.
After the abortion, the doctor helped me to insert IUD into my womb. It is a birth control method recommended by the doctor. For a few years, it was inside my uterus until 18 November 2004 whereby my IUD was removed. The gynae said my body was rejecting the IUD. So after that I had no birth control methods.
In the year 2006, we slowly went back to the church, because my children started primary schools and I wanted them to start catechism class. Going to church, I had totally forgotten that I had committed mortal sins and could not receive Holy Communion. I received Jesus still... and in the end, I was felt broken. Slowly I was on my way to conversion in the year 2007, and in the year 2008, I encountered God who told me about the existence of purgatory. I went to church for confession and had my sins absolved and back home, I had the most wonderful bath of all -- I was reborn again in water and spirit...
I was pregnant again in 2008
After God and Jesus came, how can I repeat my same mistake? I kept my baby at all cost in the year 2008, giving birth to a healthy baby in the year 2009.
