Amazing Grace

 

This is me singing amazing grace...

Today is my father's third year death anniversary.  I took leave to attend the prayer that I had booked with the priest.  At first my mother told me not to come here today because I need to go to work.  However, I dreamed of him one morning.  I realized that I had to come and see him.  I don't want to miss a session of prayer to him.  

Today, the priest asked us to choose a hymn.  Johnny chose amazing grace.  I thought it was a beautiful song and i could sing loud.  However the moment I began singing the song, tears swelled up in my eyes.  I could not control my voice also.  I controlled my tears and I had to sing to myself instead.  

The lyrics for Amazing Grace...

All the words for the song was so meaningful to me.  The priest told us that my father was physically not present but he is still alive.  It is our faith that can assured us that one day we will meet again...

My grandfather

 

Photograph of my maternal grandfather

This is my maternal grandfather.  He died on 13.1.2002. During his funeral mass, Amazing Grace was sung. It was a sad occasion, everyone crying and my mother was so sad. This song was sung but it was just a nice and beautiful song at that time. But it is a meaningful and relevant song to me after Jesus came, on 8th March 2008 (God and Jesus came...). Some months ago (in 14 August 2017), I dreamt of my grandfather. In the dream, he told me his name was Joseph Lee. I woke up to check if his name and surname was really Joseph Lee. Indeed it was. I never know he was named Joseph.  

My grandfather and grandmother were siblings.  He loved to play mahjong with my mum.  He worked as a sugar cane delivery man, delivered sugar cane to drink stalls.  My second aunt used to be working in the drink stall with her husband.  My parents and I went usually visited them at the stall.  Sometimes over there I would see my grandfather.  

I went to the hospital with my sister to see my grandfather before he died.  At that time I was still separated with Richard.  It was somewhere around May 2002 that he came back to the family.  His sudden returned disrupted my life then.  However I still welcomed him because the children will have a complete home...  

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