Amazing Grace

 

This is me singing amazing grace...

Today is my father's third year death anniversary.  I took leave to attend the prayer that I had booked with the priest.  At first my mother told me not to come here today because I need to go to work.  However, I dreamed of him one morning.  I realized that I had to come and see him.  I don't want to miss a session of prayer to him.  

Today, the priest asked us to choose a hymn.  Johnny chose amazing grace.  I thought it was a beautiful song and i could sing loud.  However the moment I began singing the song, tears swelled up in my eyes.  I could not control my voice also.  I controlled my tears and I had to sing to myself instead.  

The lyrics for Amazing Grace...

All the words for the song was so meaningful to me.  The priest told us that my father was physically not present but he is still alive.  It is our faith that can assured us that one day we will meet again...

100 Days

 

Photograph taken at Church of St Mary of the Angels (5th Sunday of Easter)

Today is 100 days since father died.  We had prayer session for him on the 1 May 2021 at his niche and another mass dedication (mass for the soul) to him on 2 May 2021.  

On 29 April 2021, which was last Thursday, I dreamt of my father.  It was the first time I dreamed of him ever since his death.  The cross with the white and yellow drape reminds me of the dream.  My father was dressed in white shirt, sitting down with some other people in the dream.  First time I dreamed of him dressing in white.  He had talked to me in my dream, an advice, but I cannot remember what it was now.  In the dream, I said I would remember it, but when I woke up, I had forgotten everything.  

  Photograph of my father when he was younger.  

My father loved to eat and one night he came to my brother's dream saying that he wanted to eat chicken drumstick without rice.  My brother went to buy Toto and he won money after that.  I dreamed of him, went to buy 4D, but never win anything.

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Peace Bella

Many years back, I did not know what I want in life. Giving birth to two children and trying to earn a living by working. Life was stressful when you have to balance working and raising the children and then managing the house/maid at the same time.

I worked as tuition teacher, teacher, property agent and life insurance agent.  I do not like these kind of life.  I quit everything and become a housewife for a while.  It was trying to raise my children as Catholic, bringing them to church for catechism that I became 'Christian' again.  

Bringing the children to the church, brought back memories of the church time when I was a kid.  The hymns were so nice.  I love the feeling of it. 

One day, it dawned on me that I want Peace.  I even created a blog on wordpress titled "I Want Peace".

Hence I started to have my pen name as Peace Bella --  To have Peace and I am a flower/dancer, Bella. 

With that I created Peace Bella at YouTube.  My first YouTube channel -- (4) Peace Bella - YouTube .

It's good to claim back something we had lost.  I am glad to have  Peace Bella back again.  

 

 A Peace Bella production many years back showing my photographs. Enjoy!

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