I was cycling back to home from 888 Plaza and I saw the banner that reads "Jesus Changes Everything" outside Woodlands Evangelical Free Church. It makes me ponder. Indeed Jesus had made everything different for me now. In my past, everyday was like the same to me, nothing new everyday, waking up, do blogging, do housework, went to work and so on.
But after I had experienced the miracles of transcendence and life changes (the miraculous water bath) after Jesus came to me everyday is different to me. Everyday is new and everyday experiencing changes.
Everyday I walked in the garden. There were flowers and leaves and fruits, and even bird's nest now. I saw the flowers withered and yellow leaves too. The flowers are so transient. Beauty too are transient. The rose cactus flowers or the seven stars needle flowers, and most of the flowers, open only for a day and wither the next day! I saw dead flowers on the floor, how wasted they are. Yet the flowers dropped, fruits are formed.
What is life? We come to the earth and no one teach me what is life. But we can see and learn from our surroundings. Jesus wants us to choose spiritual life. He assures us, "The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing" (John 6:63). What is the most important thing in life? What is even more important than food, drink, clothes, and a place to stay? What is more important than education and a job? Most of us value these highly. Yet they help life only during our stay in this fleshly body-- which is all too brief!
Show me, O Lord, my life's end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life. You have made my days a mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Each man's life is but a breath (Psalm 39:4-5)
Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes (James 4:13,14)
Just like my father. He too was young before, got married, had children and then aged, got sick and he left my mum and the children and grandchildren. The living ones will be heartbroken at the loss. The dead will be gone forever. "The dust returns to the ground it came from, and the spirit returns to God who gave it" (Ecclesiastes 12:7)
The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever. (1 John 2:17)
Fleshly life is brief and fading. God's life is the opposite -- always bright, always whole, always fresh, never ending. Fleshly birth, by its very nature, can never be good enough for God's kingdom. Flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God, nor does the perishable inherit the imperishable. (1 Corinthians 15:50)
Believe in Jesus. Turn to Jesus for forgiveness of sins and Follow Him.
He who believes in Me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in Me will never die (John 11:25-26)
What others hopelessly call 'death' becomes our doorway into eternal happiness.
The one who welcome us home is our Creator. He is our Father . He invites you and me to become children of God -- children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God (John 1:12,13).
My Chinese Name formed from three chinese characters
That is my chinese name, Lin BaoZhu, it means a precious pearl in the forest. My Christian name is Theresa. Theresa is my name given during Baptism. I chose to be named Theresa again during my confirmation although I can change. I thought it would not be so messy with so many different names. The name Theresa means harvester and it may means a mystic also. There are various forms of
Theresa. Some Teresa and Teresia, without the h.
My parents went to church, and this led me to ask what was my religion. I was told by my aunt that I am a Roman Catholic. Though I went to church, I had no idea who is God. I went to church, but I don't understand what was the significant of it. As we grew up, our parents don't really go church anymore.
In 1996, Richard and I had RCIA at Church of St Mary of the Angels. I was the sponsor for Yvonne and Richard had his sponser as well. We were asked the questions of how or why we wanted to join RCIA. Most of the people said it was their calling. I have no idea what was that. I think at that time I was not a good sponsor, did not answer most of the questions. Soon Richard was baptized and received his confirmation as well. In the same year, we had our Church Wedding too.
Life was full of ups and down. Our marriage was not all smooth sailing. We had our separation, reunion and now divorce. However, I am still holding on to my faith, my one and only holy catholic church. This is because I had encounter Christ, the Lord who came to my rescue when I had commited a mortal sin in my life.
Jesus came to rescue me. I went Church and came home to take a bath and miraculously, I was led by the Holy Spirit to be immersed in water, removing all the 'demons' in me. Thereafter, my sins were cleansed and I was born again in water and spirit, feeling very refreshed and good.
28 August 2008 A dinosaur appeared in the sky
Our God is a jovial one, making jokes to us. I was shown a flying pig too. In the chinese horoscope, I am a pig. So in the morning, I saw a flying pig in the sky. Pigs can fly was the message. Now, I am also a dinosaur!
I am still learning my faith, and trusting in God despite all the trials and tribulations now.
In His time, in His time, He makes all things beautiful in His time. Lord, please show me everyday As You’re teaching me Your way, That you do just what You say in Your time.
In Your time, in Your time, You make all things beautiful in Your time. Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing, be to you a lovely thing in your time
Lord please show me everyday, As you're teaching me your way
That you do just what you say, in your time
In your time, in your time, You make all things beautiful, in your time
Lord my life to you I bring, May each song I have to sing,
Be to you a lovely thing, in your time
Be to you a lovely thing, in your time
Just like how God had communicated with me through the heart and mind, and through dreams, God will reveal himself to you in your life as well. He will do it in his time, as long as you sincerely ask him. "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened." (Matthew 7:7-8)
"God, please show yourself to me." This was what I asked for when I was young. But God did not show himself to me then. Perhaps God wants me to learn and experience life first and finally reveal himself in his time. Anyway, God showed up, communicated with me and what's next?
I need God to show me the way. Richard had left the family and he is now married. Soon after the paper work is done, he got married! He wore a cross on his neck. Is that what a disciple of Jesus should do?
Yesterday I looked through the old stuff and I found a photograph of my first holy communion. It says God Lives and God Loves. Take and eat, This is my body. Take and drink, This is my blood. Four decades ago, I was at the church receiving my first holy communion. What does it mean by God Lives? I do not even know. Now God still lives, but why is there a broken marriage now. We spent so much money on the wedding photographs and it was kept in the cupboard to collect dust. Then in the end we parted. He said Isaac is my birthday present, and he left us for another woman...
I need God to show me the way, guide me to my next chapter of life.
Photograph taken at Church of St Mary of the Angels on 26.12.2021
Is it too late to discover your purpose in life now? I discovered the meaning of life when encountered Jesus. During my childhood years, I often had chance to sit in my father or brother's car to travel around. There were times where we went to far away places like Malaysia, so the journey is extremely long. The feeling was no good. I did not feel well sitting in car most of the time. Sitting in the car, I often looked out of the window and I love to see trees, different sort of trees and plants. When the car stopped, I would look down, bend my head down on the car seat and I would think of questions.
I wondered what is the meaning of life -- why parents give birth to children and then children grow up to become adults, married and then the life cycle continue. I thought why there must be sufferings where the parents died and the children are so sad. The life cycle of birth, death and sufferings continue like that. Children crying over the death of parents. In some cases parents crying over the lost of their premature death of their children.
I finally came to the realization in the year 2008 where my questions seemed to be answered. Our lives on earth is to know God as God serve as our parent on earth. By knowing Him, our burden can be lighten when we shared them with Him. By turning to Him, we are not walking alone. Finally, there is someone we can commune to when we needed help. By our Faith, there is a HOPE. Hope that on the last day when breathe our last, we will finally able to meet our departed loved ones. Though we cannot see them after they died, but we know that they still exist. And it will be everlasting life with God.
All things have been entrusted to Me by My Father. No one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal Him. Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.… ~ Matthew 11:27-29
Picture of the water moss that I saw in the terrapins tank
Life is so amazing. With life, so many amazing things can happen even without us knowing it. It was simply incredible at times.
The terrapins tank comes with a transparent cover as shown in the picture below:
Photograph of the terrapins tank with a cover above it
Everyday Dora was so amazed at the terrapins as well. She would sit down close by the tank and observe the terrapins. Now she had learned to open the cover of the tank! Imagine a cat with four legs, without hands, just legs, but they had tried to use their forelegs as hands! Dora used her forelegs or 'hands', using her claws to lift up the cover! How smart of her!
After lifting up the cover, she licked the terrapins! This is her way of learning more about these new friends in the water.
Anyway, the water in the tank was not changed for more than a week. So the white pebbles contains algae and a stalk of moss was found! So amazing, a stalk of moss with stalk and leaves in the water just appear out of nowhere! It was regeneration -- Just like how maggots appear in a closed bottle if the banana was left to rot in it. This is the first time I see a water moss grown in water. It was marvellous.
Photograph showing the water moss grown in the water
I had taken a photograph of the water moss as shown in the picture above, however, it was too small to be seen clearly. So I had sketched a drawing of the moss on the uppermost picture of this post.
We planned to grow the moss, we did not throw it away. Yesterday, the children changed the water and wash the pebbles for the terrapins. After that, they put the moss back into the water. But today it was gone. Maybe the terrapins ate it up.
Singaporeans are mostly law abiding and tends to 'listen' to the government. Otherwise there would be fines. So whatever they said people would tend to abide by them. How many women in my family follow this policy? My sister has 2 children, my sister-in-law also has two children. I used to think of only having 2 children too. However, I was wrong.
At the age of 38 I gave birth to another tiny human being. I had to carry my cross and bare all hardship to juggle my pregnancy with caring for the home and children. How precious is a life?
I had Isaac in my womb for nine months. I did not know how much it means to me until I was almost losing it at the time of birth.
There was bleeding and I quickly went to the hospital with Richard. At the hospital, I was asked to lay in the bed to rest.
Photograph of me at Mount Alvernia Hospital 2009
I stayed there for almost one two days and one night then I was pushed to the delivery ward. Over there, I still need to wait for the uterus to open up. It was early in the morning when I still need to wait for the doctor to arrive. By the time I had epidural and the doctor came it was quite some time. Finally the baby came out from my womb.
Isaac cried and the nurse carried him to show me. However later on, the doctor and nurse seemed to be doing something which I did not know. Later on I was informed by the doctor that the baby was in critical state. He was in the womb for too long, and he had eaten his own feaces. The baby was a bit blue. The doctor said the baby need to be pushed to the critical care unit.
At that moment, I was so scared of losing him. I did not want to carry him for nine months and lost him in the end. We prayed. I called home to the children and told them about it. I asked them to help to pray too. Luckily, soon Isaac was fine ultimately. We thanked God that he was well at that moment.
Today we celebrates my father's 48th day of his passing. Tomorrow will be 49th day. My mother cooked his favourite dishes and my brother bought his favourite food to pray to him.
Many years ago, before Jesus came, I would be scared that I would lost my parents one day. I always pray for their safety and for them to have a long life. I am scared that I would not be able to see them anymore should one day they died. However, after I had experienced 'death' and resurrection myself, I do not fear death anymore.
It was written in the scripture that Jesus died and resurrected. And in today's prayer at the columbarium, we had a reading from the first letter of St Paul to the Thessalonians -- 1Thess 4:13-18
Believers Who Have Died: Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. According to the Lord’s word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage one another with these words.
Yes, I experienced it myself on that night of transcendence -- I was not sleeping. I was closing my eyes. Then at the point of transcendence, God came. My room was so filled with white light, so bright until even though I closed my eyes, my eyes could experience light. (No wonder St Paul's/Saul's eyes were blinded by the light of Jesus on the way to Damascus -- Acts 9:1-19 , for me I was so scared, I do not dare to open my eyes.) There were 3 flashes of light, and various sound I heard later on on both ears -- birds, dogs and wolves. After that it was victory at last with the blowing of the trumpet sound. It was dawn by then. Beside me was Richard, all asleep the whole while.
And my father often mention the words "Hock Wack" meaning Jesus 复活。 So I believe my father will be resurrected too.
This is a picture of me and my father. I must thank my sister for being the photographers for families events. Without her, I would have no memoir to keep. I must also thank my father for supporting me, paying all the education fees for my studies. And yet I had not repay him...
Jesus always taught people using parables and He is a great teacher because He is able to cure the sick, the blind and even bring the dead back to life.
Jesus had always perform miracles. I had never experienced miracles before. However, I had experienced miracle on the day where Jesus came to save me. He came to 'wash my feet' -- I had the most wonderful shower on that day, perfectly cleanse. I felt so good and so refreshed.
Jesus did miracles for two reasons -- to show His love for people and to prove that He is God and has all power to heal and to give eternal life to those who believe in Him.
If Jesus had not come, I would probably end up in Hell and purgatory. I was the lamb that he saved. I was a sinner and yet He came to save me. I was the lost sheep and He came to rescued me.
Matthew 18:12-14 and Luke 15:3-7: The Little Lost Lamb
Jesus once told a story about a little lamb that lived in a pasture with 99 other sheep. The shepherd took very good care of his sheep. He fed them, gave them water, and chased away wild animals. But one day, the shepherd noticed his lamb was missing. Right away, he left the other 99 and went looking. When he found the lamb he was very happy.
Looking at the picture of Jesus carrying the lost lamb (before Jesus came), I always wondered how it felt like. So I always tried carrying Cebest to have a feel of it.
Back to the miracle. And I still remember the day when Richard and I went to Marsiling to eat Bak Kut Teh (his favourite), I just drink the soup. On that day, the soup was never dry! I kept drinking the soup and the water level was always the same! Isn't it a miracle as well? I can still remember also that on the way to the Bak Kut Teh, we cycled there by the way, and there was a green slim snake dropped just in front of him. I was a little behind him, so I saw everything. He was so scared.
Matthew 14:16-21, Mark 6:35-44, Luke 9:12-17, John 6:5-14 Jesus Feed the 5000 men and their families.
I really never believe in miracles, but after this incident, there really is such things called miracles.
The golem, showing Victory over sins
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57)
You can see videos of Peace Belle on the right margin of this blog. They were my favourite songs. My videos were created in the year 2006 when my money in the bank was just 1-2 hundreds of dollars. I learned my ways to earn money online then. And so I created Peace Bella and Peace Belle on YouTube.
Life has never been easy. It's full of ups and downs. I created this blog, my aim is to be happy in life. And that is why my son is named Isaac, meaning 'laughter'.
I want to mention about Peace Belle. Recently I had been trying to retrieve back all my 'cold' accounts. I had successfully retrieve Peace Bella. I had created Theresalimpc, the latest ones, after I had forgotten how to login for Peace Bella. I would very much wanted to retrieve back my Peace Belle account, by no matter what I cannot do so. It was created 15years back. I had changed phone numbers several times and emails too. I had forgotten everything. What a waste to lost this account.
I love songs and most of the videos of Peace Belle record the catholic hymns I had recorded in the church. Now I had stopped recording in the church so as to show respect and to be concentrating celebrating the mass.
Just a video which I had created recently. My latest video account. I hope you can help to subscribe to my channel. Will mention about angels in another post.
Thanks for reading. God Bless you.
It's 13 years since Jesus came to me, and he said "Follow Me".
I was dead and was then given a new life till now. What does it means to follow him?
I was lost but found by Christ. I wanted to acknowledge that I am a Catholic, a christian and a follower of Christ.
In the past, an interviewer asked me, "Are you a Christian?" I told him, "No, I am not a Christian."
I even shifted all the Catholic statues out of the house, put them in the corridor cupboard and then brought them to my mother's house. I stopped praying to Jesus. I stopped going to church also.
But because of something which I had done many years back, I was saved.
What did I do? I thought that since my sister can do it, I will do it too. Can you guess what I did?
It's not a glamourous thing to do. It is my own flesh and blood. I killed it. But I did not know that I actually killed it. I was blinded. Doing things without knowing it. I was dead. Even at the clinic, I told them I wanted abortion, they did not stop me. They just let me sign papers. They were supposed to tell me the consequences of abortion, which until now I don't know. I asked the nurse, but she never told me the answers -- what effect does it have? She just told me some 'unrelated stuff' about her husband. "You know lah, man ....." things like that. And at that time, I happened to know the nurse. It was someone I knew at the workplace. She had changed her workplace.
So I never know that I had sinned, greatly sinned.
What's more, after that then I realized that my father had taught me that, "If you have a mortal sin, you cannot receive holy communion." Oh, how greatly I had sinned. Not only do I have mortal sins but also venial sins.
Before my husband came back, we committed adulteries too. He had new girlfriend and I had my boyfriend. So wretched, so badly sinned.
Then I wanted my children to raise up as good Catholics. I started to go church. Little did I know that I had done the wrong things. I never went for confession (reconciliation) and I just went forward to receive Holy Communion. It really never come to my mind what my father had taught me.
So the miraculous things happened on 8 March 2008. I had a dream of Jesus, telling me about 'Singapore'. I woke up and I heard him saying, "Follow Me". I was so broken. I cried for all my sins. Next, I walked to the window and I saw the 'map of Singapore' in the clouds. And Jesus was saying I am the bread of life. Back then I have no idea at all Jesus was the bread of life! I learned from my dreams! During my bath, I was 'cleansed' and washed again with new spirit... Jesus helped me to wash away all the evil spirits.
Now, Jesus said, "Take up your cross and follow me." (Matthew 16:24, Mark 8:34 and Luke 9:23)
If I want to follow him I have to take up my cross. I am still learning now how to take up my cross.
Photographs showing the map of Singapore. Picture taken from my window.
