Thursday, 28 April 2022
Aging and Death
Wednesday, 27 April 2022
Lamb of God
My mother has four children. My elder brother married young, and gave birth to their children very young also. I was always fascinated with the chinese horoscope, the twelve zodiac animals. I found out all the zodiac animals for every one in the family. For all the newborn, I found out the zodiac animals too. I told my mother that we have so many zodiac animals in our family, some even repeats eg. My father and Eddy are both tiger, Belinda, Thomas and Valerie are dogs. What is missing in the family? The goat. The Lamb is missing.
I was pregnant in the year of the horse, 2002, but aborted the baby then. If I had persevere and kept the baby, he would be born in the year of the goat, 2003. However, I killed the lamb. It was the lamb of God I killed... Then in the year 2008, Jesus saved me, the lost sheep...
Then in the year 2003, we bought Cebest, our special schnauzer dog. Cebest was born in 2003, 2 May 2003, the year of the goat! He was taken away unexpectedly to meet God in the year 2006.
I also found out later on that my father-in-law was a 'goat', born on Valentine's Day even! 14.2.1943 if I am not wrong... He died on 30 November 2015...
Evacuation of Uterus
The gynae asked me to sign the paper after I told him that I want to abort my baby. At that time, the foetus was just 6 weeks old. I signed the paper and was asked to pass the paper to the nurse. It was mention that the nature and effect of the surgery was explained to me. In actual fact, nothing was explained to me. No explanation from the gynae. No explanation from the nurse. So I asked the nurse, what is the effects of the surgery, she did not tell me.
In my mind was to just abort the baby. So I did not ask more already.
Tuesday, 26 April 2022
Grandma